Reality.

Reality check:
I don't want to lose you as a friend.
Although, I do not consider you my bestfriend.
I know I haven't been the best person to you.
But neither have you.
Bringing it up again is pointless though; neither of us can change the past.
At this point in time. I don't believe I have a bestfriend.
I have friends that I trust, and friends that I don't.
To be honest, you're not one of the people I trust.
With some things, yes. But nothing that I really care about.
I don't want to lose you as a friend.
But we can stop with this charade of labeling each other "best friend".



So yesterday night/early this morning, I got a random call from my boy and Krystal. So entertaining, and so hilarious. I think it's essential to think of you're significant other as also, one of your best friends. That phone call made me realize that I have that. Those two are honestly, some of the most important people in my life right now. They are my motivation, to pull through all this crap, and better myself.

"it's me and you."
-RR

Every word feels like a slap in the face. And everyone else has the faith.
It's charging me up, it's filling me up, my eyes are wider than ever before.
And none of it is because of you.
I'm here to prove you wrong.
I'm an eclipse of what everyone though I would be;
a sight unseen only by those who truly appreciate it.
Oh, how I wish you'd care enough to see.